These people has gone through thick and thin with me during this course.

I can't believe that its going to end soon.
But for this lecturer- Jenny Boey, she had her last lesson with us just now.
Yes! The very last module that is under her.
Gosh! Time flies that fast eh??
I'm like left with 3more modules to go... till the end of my course.
and A HELL LOT of assignments to be done.


Next week i have an assignment due, and also a presentation falls on the same day. (I think. Not quite sure which due date is which. Too packed already.)
And the following week, we have another assignment due.
The following week after the previous week, I have another assignment due.
And and.. the list goes on and on.



When will this going to end?
Soon i guess?
But i felt like it's never ending.

REMINISCING.
Sometimes I wonder why 'some' or 'certain' people are so free to do what they want.
And i'm like stuck here; with all the assignments.
What bothers me the most is that, some people just couldn't bother to take note of what is happening around.

They only react when they are told to do so.
And when they are not asked to do anything, they will just get the fact in their mind that,
"Ohh its ok. There's always someone finishing the task for me."


Sometimes i think, i'm being too soft hearted?
Like to give in?
Love to sacrifice own happiness for others' happiness?
Enjoys making myself felt deprive of having back my NORMAL & FUN life?
And even worse, i like to think for others'; i always take it that i have to put others before me.

But, then again!

Why am i doing all this, when i'm actually spoiling that person.
Right??


Don't I have my own life?
Don't I have my family to think of?
Don't I have other commitments; at most, i don't have a boyriend BUT i do have my friends; especially my girlfriends?
Don't I have my own assignments to think of? and to settle?
Don't I have the right to just step down?
Don't I have the right to voice out?
Don't I have to think about myself for once- Dont't i deserve a break?
Don't I have feelings too?
Don't you know how lethargic I am?


I'm not being self-centered here.
And i apologise if i sounded like one.
But, people...
This is the fact that no one knows

What if i tries to voice out, things will get worse?
But, I really need to get the msg across that i'm superduperextremely TIRED.
I'm worn out.
I have no energy left to boost up myself during this fasting period.


Do people like to step on my head, because I'm always being nice?
Do people like to think that every sentences I make, i really mean it the way they think it is?
Despite knowing what are my content for that sentence?
Why do people misinterpret what I says?
Don't these people know that... "Hello! I need some space here!"

I'm terribly in doubt with myself now. Should I? Or should not?
I want to acknowledge what am i feeling but at the same time,
I don't want anyone else hurt or I don't want to be seen as a mean person/ etc.
*Z-boncet is in a massive DILLEMA.*



At times, I like to think back.
And realise my mistakes.
And i think HE(up there) just knock some sense into me.
And i think, I don't mind if my girlfriends are to be mad, infact very mad, at me for my ignorant attitude towards them.


Girls, my apology right?

I'm sorry for what I've said to any of you, without knowing that it might sound harsh.
I know i'm wrong, forgive me.
But i hope you would just understand my situation.
I'm in this terrible state, you know.
I feel like breaking down right now.
But i can't.
I have to stay strong.
Concurrently, I want you girls back like how we use to be.
Like always, despite the distance between us; be it you are at east side of Singapore or outside of Singapore, far away... I'll always love you people.


Cause you people are always there for me; when i'm in need.
Cause you people could have the empathy or sympathy for me.
Cause you people are really special to me.
Cause you people are the most greated person I've ever met.
And the most important part is that, you people are the most precious assets that I own.
Doesn't mean that I have my other new peeps, I have to forget about you people;
you people I've placed it safely in my heart.

Trust me.


I didn't mean those hurtful words I've said.
I'm under great pressure.
Forgive me.


I'm sorry darlings.
Forgive me.
And for once, just put yourself in my shoe.
And understand me. .
I would appreciate it very much if guys would do that.

Once again!

I'm really sorry.

Forgive me! ):