September 30, 2008
Greetings. 5:51 PM
Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow mates, who celebrates HARI RAYA of course.
And i want to take this opportunity to seek forgiveness to those people that I've done wrong;
be it hurting you people physically or emotionally.
Well, I'm a human too!
Can't escape from making any mistakes.
(:
So, I hope that all of you could forgive me.
Sincerely, I'm sorry.
And of course, HAPPY NEW YEAR.
don't eat alot okay? especially to my dearest DPTF20.
hee! (:
Love ♥,
Zeeboncet.
September 28, 2008
Energised. 7:49 AM
A BRAND NEW ZEE.
Okay, my horoscope says that i'm suppose to try something new and I'll be energised. And it even says go exploring for moreto build up on the energy i have.
So, the new look is something I tried. And its true, though i don't really look into horoscope thingy and i usually don't believe what it says. Cause, every aquarians would have the same thing right? So, i just think that the horoscope is a coincidence thingy.
So, yeah like i've said, I felt so energised and felt as though i'm turning over a new leaf, hopefully. Insya allah. Really need a breakout from this mundane life afterall. I can't be just sitting here doing nothing for myself and at the same time hoping for miracle to happen, right?? And things in life happen doesn't always give you an option to live up your life. So, Jia You!
So, let's really put the past behind. And hopefully it would fade away by itself. Hunt me no more. Please.
SO! Now, i want to try something new! *very evil smile* nyahahaaahhas.
(:
Okay. I'm suppose to get my assignment today. Cause due date is.... TMRW! Riiiigggghhht. Let's train myself to concentrate more. Aight! Gtg. Update soon! Stick around ya!
Lovee,
ZeeeBONCET.
PS: You decide what you want in your life not anyone else. Don't let others hold you back from getting what you want. Learn to say "NO".September 27, 2008
* Happy one year to her0fanaticalrants! * 8:46 AM
Oh my!
Look at how fast time flies.
Let's do a time check.
This month is September, isn't it?
Ok.
I don't think i'm in the wrong month.
And guess what?
My blog is a year old!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to our-lovestorybegins (initially).
but now its her-fanaticalrants.
So, yeah.
WIthout realising, i've been blogging for a year now.
Stayed up all morning after had my sahur.
And tried to do my assignments, but couldn't get my mind to concentrate.
So, browse the internet and decided to change friendster song again.
Hee! (:
Then don't know why, felt the urge to open my old entries at this blog.
And that's when i realised that I've been blogging for a year.
Yehhaaaa!
(:
Well, let's not look on the past, and let's just aim to do the best for the future!
PS: 3 more days to raya!
& About 3weeks to practicum.
):
September 24, 2008
No more being Miss Nice. 11:41 PM
Ok.
I just hate liars.
I know!
Who doesn't lie?
True?
But but, please laah.
When you can actually tell me the truth, why aren't you doing so?
Instead you either make it up or turn the story around.
Why am I always ended up facing with these type of people?
And the best part is that, i always get to know the truth behind all the lies.
Great right?
C'mon people.
I'm being nice and sweet to you.
But then, you shouldn't do that to me.
Hey! I have feelings too!
And guess what?
This is not the first time I'm facing with these type of people.
I met lots of them.
Arghhh!
Just how do I get out from this shite?
Tell me, how?
And why when I'm being nice to people, people always take advantage on my kindness.
And why do they always taking everything for granted?
I mean, I'm not tryng to be the 'angel' here.
But then, please have mercy on me.
I'm just a lil 'innocent' girl.
that just want the best out of my life.
Stop giving me frustation will you?
I had enough.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Let's start a proper blog entry.
I know I've been complaining and complaining about the shites that happen in my life.
But what to do.
I just can't keep it long enough in me.
Furthermore, it's not healthy ok.
Speaking about healthy.
Urgh!
I have to find a recipe that is suitable for 5-6 year olds children.
And it must be a HEALTHY meal of course.
And my migrain is killing me.
I can't even find a single thing on the yahoo search.
And the recipe that are stuck in my mind is for adult.
Not really suitable for growing up children.
I can't start my assignment YET.
Though i know it due in about a few more days.
But, i'm serious.
I'm mentally tired.
Today, Aira and me decided to come in late.
So, we took our own sweet time to make our way to class.
Though we know that the lecturer is very particular about punctuality.
But who cares?
I have a sudden urge to rebel today.
Maybe too tired of being lil nice girl in that class.
Even one of my lecturemate said,
"Z, you look so shagged! What happen to you?
And nowadays it's hard for me to see you smile.
And guess what? You look more fierce and seems like those type that are not easy to approach."
LOL!
Imagine that!
ME??
Not smiling???
Gosh! She must have look at me at the wrong time of the month.
Maybe.
I don't know.
And I think I know why.
Though it's a fasting month.
But then, past experiences makes me react that way.
Firstly, the boorish lady who worked in my school under one of the dept.
And secondly, the Certificate of Infants and Toddlers-students are soooooo.......
OPPOSITE OF FRIENDLY!
to the max.
Let's recap a lil.
Hmmm....
Last month I think,
My group had a late night discussion.
And bump into those students.
And i smiled.
Guess what?
They just give me the minah kind of stares.
"HELLO! In case you don't know. I'm trying to be nice here and trying to be friendly here.
And i don't appreciate that kind of look towards me.
And don't take me as one of the minahs out there.
Cause i ain't one of them.
You can differentiate that, don't you?
Gosh!"
And guess what?
Bumped into another batch of girls.
And their face is like... urgh!
Waste my effort to smile! (I'm sincere for smiling though. LOL!)
Don't get me wrong.
Hee!
And not forgetting to mention that they are actually the same race as me.
Those that are mentioned earlier.
YES!
Same race and religion.
I have a shock in my life to see this kind of people.
So, tell me.
Am i too nice?
Or is it just me that do not know how to pick on people; which to smile to or not.
PS: I hate people that I smile to, and they simply just look away and give me that kind of face.
So, when you're outside, and bumped into me and i'm smiling at you.
Don't ever dare to give me that kind of face.
Please be nice for once.
And for those that have smiled at me, and i ignored.
Means, I didn't see you.
So, its either you come up to me say HI or any other NICE and FRIENDLY approach.
(:
Till here then.
Nights!
I just can't wait for Friday.
A'ai(:
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September 23, 2008
We've come this far together. 4:54 PM
Last day with Lecturer Jenny Boey
Once upon a time..
has come to an end(:
Thanks to the lecturer for tolerating the nonsensical and hard time handling us(;
Learning Vision/Pat School House teachers-to-be.
Presenting to you; my hot babe.
Annk(:
These people has gone through thick and thin with me during this course.-My dearest groupmates-
I can't believe that its going to end soon.
But for this lecturer- Jenny Boey, she had her last lesson with us just now.
Yes! The very last module that is under her.
Gosh! Time flies that fast eh??
I'm like left with 3more modules to go... till the end of my course.
and A HELL LOT of assignments to be done.
Next week i have an assignment due, and also a presentation falls on the same day. (I think. Not quite sure which due date is which. Too packed already.)
And the following week, we have another assignment due.
The following week after the previous week, I have another assignment due.
And and.. the list goes on and on.
When will this going to end?
Soon i guess?
But i felt like it's never ending.
REMINISCING.
Sometimes I wonder why 'some' or 'certain' people are so free to do what they want.
And i'm like stuck here; with all the assignments.
What bothers me the most is that, some people just couldn't bother to take note of what is happening around.
They only react when they are told to do so.
And when they are not asked to do anything, they will just get the fact in their mind that,
"Ohh its ok. There's always someone finishing the task for me."
Sometimes i think, i'm being too soft hearted?
Like to give in?
Love to sacrifice own happiness for others' happiness?
Enjoys making myself felt deprive of having back my NORMAL & FUN life?
And even worse, i like to think for others'; i always take it that i have to put others before me.
But, then again!
Why am i doing all this, when i'm actually spoiling that person.
Right??
Don't I have my own life?
Don't I have my family to think of?
Don't I have other commitments; at most, i don't have a boyriend BUT i do have my friends; especially my girlfriends?
Don't I have my own assignments to think of? and to settle?
Don't I have the right to just step down?
Don't I have the right to voice out?
Don't I have to think about myself for once- Dont't i deserve a break?
Don't I have feelings too?
Don't you know how lethargic I am?
I'm not being self-centered here.
And i apologise if i sounded like one.
But, people...
This is the fact that no one knows
What if i tries to voice out, things will get worse?
But, I really need to get the msg across that i'm superduperextremely TIRED.
I'm worn out.
I have no energy left to boost up myself during this fasting period.
Do people like to step on my head, because I'm always being nice?
Do people like to think that every sentences I make, i really mean it the way they think it is?
Despite knowing what are my content for that sentence?
Why do people misinterpret what I says?
Don't these people know that... "Hello! I need some space here!"
I'm terribly in doubt with myself now. Should I? Or should not?I want to acknowledge what am i feeling but at the same time, I don't want anyone else hurt or I don't want to be seen as a mean person/ etc.*Z-boncet is in a massive DILLEMA.*
At times, I like to think back. And realise my mistakes. And i think HE(up there) just knock some sense into me. And i think, I don't mind if my girlfriends are to be mad, infact very mad, at me for my ignorant attitude towards them.
Girls, my apology right?
I'm sorry for what I've said to any of you, without knowing that it might sound harsh. I know i'm wrong, forgive me. But i hope you would just understand my situation. I'm in this terrible state, you know. I feel like breaking down right now. But i can't. I have to stay strong. Concurrently, I want you girls back like how we use to be.Like always, despite the distance between us; be it you are at east side of Singapore or outside of Singapore, far away... I'll always love you people.
Cause you people are always there for me; when i'm in need. Cause you people could have the empathy or sympathy for me. Cause you people are really special to me. Cause you people are the most greated person I've ever met. And the most important part is that, you people are the most precious assets that I own. Doesn't mean that I have my other new peeps, I have to forget about you people; you people I've placed it safely in my heart.
Trust me.
I didn't mean those hurtful words I've said. I'm under great pressure. Forgive me.
I'm sorry darlings. Forgive me. And for once, just put yourself in my shoe. And understand me. .
I would appreciate it very much if guys would do that.Once again!
I'm really sorry.
Forgive me! ):
September 21, 2008
Geylang cum Ikea 11:03 PM
Ok. Thought of meeting up someone today.But then, family came up with a last minute outing. Initially, had to delay the meet up but then at the end of the day...had to cancel it. *Sorry to Ai Ai (: "
Hmmmm.... What was the plan? Have a guess, where would you go if you're a week away from festive day and its a weekend somemore??
YES! Of course! Geylang uhh. Where else can we go. (: Sister wanted to find some baju kurung for Lil Princess. Went to most of the shop, but couldn't find her size. LOL! In the end, we found Lil Princess, 3 Baju kurung+ Baju kebaya. Kalah tauke! (:
And and, ohya!! I met my primary school teacher which I adore alot.She doesn't change at all. And i have her number, after waiting for about 6years, I get to meet back with her.
Hmmm.... Okay. Back to my story. After we have bought Lil princess's outfit for raye. We went to Ikea at Tampiness. Mama wanted to get some decorations for my house. We spend quite a long time there. Choosing, putting it back, browsing, take the item back, comparing two or three items and at last...she chooses the one that she want. That explains why we spend such a long time at there.
After that, I thought we were about to get home. Then brother took another way. We end up at Bukit Gombak bazaar ramadhan. Gosh! What a suprise. Did not expect to go there. Cause everyone was quite shagged that time. Its more like a sudden turn to Bukit Gombak. So, at bazaar what else do we do? Buy food of course.
Dish for the day- Nasi Briyani *burp.* (:
Okay. That's all for my weekend. Update soon. Here are some pictures to go along with today's entry.
The 3 Dara(s) (:
The best pose she made.
Ina ends her weekends, with a great big SMILE(:
September 18, 2008
can have a break? 12:47 PM
Ok! I'm rotting in class right now.
I feel OVER EXHAUSTED and when i walk out from my house, i'm like dragging my feet.
Not only that, I draged myself to get out from my bed.
Can you imagine, how bad is my life going on right now???
I know, i'm left to survive for a few more weeks.
About a mth to my attachment day and have 8 assignments due so far.
GOSH! during attachment period, i have a few assignments due!
How to handle this man??
In additonal to that, i have a folder for practicum to finish up.
So, in total i would have about 9 assignments due!
Huhu!
And i don't think Hari Raya this year is going to be fun for me.
Assignments due around that week.
And i don't have the mood to celebrate also.
Too tired to enjoy festive celebration.
):
I want to have a break!
YES! YES! YES! I want to have a break!
A VACATION! ):
I'm in need of one right now.
Aduhhh! Tired like hell laa seyy.
YESSSS cousin, i'm a busy woman right now.
Hope that i would have my free time soon!
Pretty soon pls!
Sorry readers.
I will only complain, complain and complain till the day where i can get.........
My FREEDOM!
till here then.
takecare folks!
September 16, 2008
Random. 11:50 PM
Ok. Is it just me, or my face look abit too small than last time???
Dh nmpk tulang(skeleton face). Eeeeww.
And it looks like as though i'm taking drugs or something.
I think its because of the work load, insufficient sleep and of course Ramadhan period.
Though I'm thankful that i get some fats off me.
But then again, i just miss my chubby cheek.
HEE! (:
You must be thinking or must have the idea that i'm just like one of those girls out there that will never be contente with what they have. Always complaining. Typical right.
Then again, don't always judge me by the way I write.
Each and everyone are different.
And I prefer to bore you readers by saying all this out. (:
Don't you just lovee me??
What else can i talk about?
Love life? Neh. Don't have YET.
My GFs?? I'm busy and they are on their own way of living their life. I do miss them, but what to do. I have to go through this now or never. And I'm only left...with like what?? A month more to get my Diploma? Gosh. That's fast.
My lecturemates and I didn't feel as though we are already there listening to most of the lectures for about 4 months? It feels like we are there forever and never ending course.
Monday just handed in an assignment, group assignment.
And now, there's a group presentation tmrw afternoon. And next week there's another written individual assignment to be handed in. The folowing week till the week when we are all out for our on the job training, we would still have some assignments due. *sigh*
Ok. Sorry for being random.
And and, it's going to be Hari raya soon.
*No mood*
:(
Wish there's a free time for us.
Hopefully.
Till here then.
Update pretty soon with more exciting stories, i guess.
September 15, 2008
Annk&Zee. 11:36 PM
Today, everyone cancel the plan to breafast outside. Today is like the most purfect time to get ourselves some time off the heavy work load. And yeah, about 5-6 assignments are piling up right now. So, when heard that everyone could not make it today, i was feeling disappointed. However, i do understand their situation at the same time. Cause everyone has their own commitment. And its all up to us, as friends to understand their situation.
So, end up I went out with Annk to breakfast at ZamZam.
We thought of 'cleansing our eyes' with the scenery at the bazaar ramadhan at Arab St.
But then again, ZamZam is where every muslims get there to breakfast..meaning.. there will be no space for us if we are late. So, we decided to just sit in at 6:30pm. And guess what?? The uncles in the shop are already making their way out with their stomach full with Nasi Briyani. And i was like asking Annk, "Are we late, or its just them?"
(: hahahaha. ridiculuous bunch of uncles. Have some respect for the most respected month of the year! Tkde segan silu langsung pakcik2 nie tau. Iskkk iskk.
Ok, enough about those pakcik(s).
Annk and I waited for the breakfast time.
We ordered, "Murtabak Ayam for 2."
And the mamak guy was like shouting across the area, "Ayam besar makan satu!"
hahahha. The way he said it, makes me and Annk giggle.
Really, you should have listen to it man.
Funny laa sey....
Then after buke-ing, we decided to just walk past the bazaar.
And we ended up going in to one of the cafe- Al Majlis.
(:
we were stoiinnkking at the place for about 2-3 hours?
And the saddest thing is that we didn't get to camwhore that much.
Both didn't bring cammy along.
So, yeah we only took a few pics.
After 10plus, i think.
We make a move.
And here I am.
Comfortably sitting in my couch.
And today is the only day, after the outing I had with my gfs at Mosi Cafe, i get to feel a lil relaxed.
*sigh*
So, here's some peekchas we took today.
Enjoy.
Thanks for reading.
September 14, 2008
Still not getting it? 6:19 AM
OOOOOkkkkayy! I'm like feeling too shagged these days.
And I can't remember when was the last time I had my beauty sleep man.
Ever since last thursday, my sleeping time is from 2/3am in the morning till 4am??
Then after that, its wake up time all the way tlll tmrw morning.
Imagine that 2 hours of sleeping ain't helping me to keep myself awake for my lectures man.
And after class, either there's short discussion
or sometimes the lecturer ends our class later than we expected.
By the time I reached home, look myself in the mirror, to my horror;
"What the hell happen to me man! Look at those panda eyes!"
I would love to stop the time from flying so fast.
Cause i just want to have my own time.
to really pamper myself with what i want and need.
I need de-stress session.
I need a full body massage.
I need a hot bath.
I need and want to have a...... TIME BREAK! ):
Yeah! I guess that is what i'm in need the most right now. A BREAK- i don't care what kind of 'holiday' that i can get, I'm just in need of one right now.
And i think i'm deprive of going out.
I'm deprive of having shopping time.
I'm deprive of doing things that i want the most.
And this is the time, where you wish that the people around you would understand your situation and give motivation statements.
Ok. Enough of that.
I don't think i'll be updating blog any time sooner.
BUT! I might be updating if i had the time to.
Back to my assignments!
Adious!
PS: Sometimes the words that you say is hurtful enough to bring me down.
September 7, 2008
01Sep08 & 06Sep08 12:04 AM
"Family Puase Gathering"
Today was a strenuous day for me. My family had a “Puase Gathering” at my aunt place at the North side. Though the food was scrumptiously served, I can't enjoy the food. Huhu. Why? Firstly, due to medication reason that required me to eat the medicines first and after half an hour, I’m allowed to break-fast with main dishes. Of course, I had to break-fast with a ‘kurma’ (dates) and mineral water. And secondly, my nieces and nephews are scattered around. Hahahahahha! All waiting to be fed by their parents. After I babysit one of my dearest niece, 5-month olds Insyirah. Then I had my main dish, at about 7.50? After about 15minutes, my rest came to an end. LOL! My nephew, Afiq, asked me to go accompany him play with the rest. And I have no choice but to follow what he wants, because the rest of cousins are totally shagged to entertain them. So…. I sat in the room, playing, becoming a crazy lunatic with them, laughing, act insanely and etc. HAHAHA! Because every stupid faces and movements I made, they just love to laugh at it. (: See how children can make my life a lot better. Riggghhhhttt!
Imagine that I have about 4 or 5 more of Ina in the room that I have to look out for. Goshhh! Migraine you know! Oh wells, at least they are the entertainer of my life. (“,)
From 8plus till 10 plus, I’m stucked inside the room with them. Till my sister came into the room and said it’s time to go. WAAAHHH! It feels good to hear that. I’m just too tired. How tired can you be, after being bullied by her nieces and nephews. Hee! But it was fun though. My brother fetched us home, and meanwhile, there’s some pictures below taken today.
Do enjoy the pictures yeah. Update soon! (:
Haqiem & Aunty Zee(:
Sherniza & Aunty Zee(:
Afiq & Aunty Ze(:
Star of the day- Md. Afiq(:
Look at how active my niece can be.
Nakal kan muke! Pening dehh.
As usual, she never fails to camwhore with her Mak Ucu.
Haqiem and Aunt Zee(:
ME and Mummy(:
Last but not least, presenting the SUMO brothers. Hee! (: - Elfie
Okay this is for
1st september- First day of puase and Teachers' Day. Had Afdlin and mummy to come over to break-fast with us. Okay. Not much updates, but here are some pictures for you readers! Hope do enjoy(: And thanks for reading up till this part of the entry. (:
Labels: break-fast, child-attack, food, gathering, nephews, nieces
September 3, 2008
i wish, i wish 12:31 AM
*Sigh* Can i be a small kid which have a wonderful childhood just like how the kids nowadays are enjoying their childhood days?? I find that kids nowadays are veeerrrryyy fortunate. True! Just look at how education are treated nowadays? I mean..pre-school years.... compared it to my pre-school days, i think i prefer the new curriculum man. Years ago, we have to crack our head to just memorise, memorise, and more memorising work and more and even more. So, in other words, let's just take it that childhood years last time are really drilling the children to their grave. Muahahahhhah! However i'm looking into that using one aspect only. OF COURSE there's the advantages of having those rote-teaching method. Yaa laaa... I'm just highlighting that i envied 2000 babies... They have the whole childhood years to enjoy... more hands-on stuff.. meaning more FUN stuff to mingle around with.
I'm just too tired handling adult-like life. REAAALLLY tired! A hell lot of stuff on my mind. I just hate responsibilities. and i just wish that i can shrink and be small like my dear niece, Ina. Can join her pretend play, doll house play, blocks play and etc. Or maybe i can have a time break from all these nerve wrecking problems and just go on a long and nice vacation. But, too bad! I'm stuck with this road of life, which i think i can't run away from it. ARGH! If only money falls down to the ground, life wouldn't be so hard after all,not only to me(I guess)... I can travel anywhere i want, can take cab home-if meeting my girlfriends till late at night, can do WHATEVER i want! Can go shopping like there's no tmrw. Can go on a vacation with family or my gfs. Can even settle everything, without having a big fuss over it. *sigh* all these, are "only if" situation.
Aduhhhhh! That's only a quarter of what's on my mind is being type out. There's more than that. Huhuhuhuhuhuhu! Assignments??? OK! I'm like slacking laa seyyfor this time round. But but! I manage to get my first assignment a good grade, or should i say a reaaally reaallly great grade. I didn't expect to get that kind of grade. Oh wells, Bersyukur already la. The best gift, ramadhan has to offer me. hee! Alhamdulilah!
Ok. I think i really need my brain to work on my september assignment(S).
Thanks for reading, once again.
(:
Update soon fellas!
September 1, 2008
random. 11:59 AM
Okay time check! HUH?!?! 1st september??? two weeks away from practicum briefing! AND ITS PUASE TIME? AND wwwhhhaatt?!?! It's been about two weeks since i last updated my blog? GOODNESS! Look at how fast the time flies.
I'm just too busy to update my blog. and furthermore.. i have nothing special to blog about. My life is as mundane as ever. Packed with assignments and presentations. Huhu! Missed my giler-peeps. YES! And Fee is back! And i have not find a free time slot to meet her. And, distance DO play an important part! Just look at me. Living in jurong, and my peeps are all staying at the east side. And whenever i wanted to meet them up after class, i will be feeling too shagged to travel around. And yeah! I miss them a hell lot! I hope i could make it up to them soon! Pretty soon! (:
Ohh! Btw, happy fasting to all muslims fellowmates out there! Especially to my giler-peeps and DPTF20 peeps! (: Huhu! And class ends late this month. WHAT?? PUASE month and classes are dragged from 9.30 to 5? Gimme a break, can? Moga-moga dpt mengharungi cobaan ini. Hee! No more laughing at weird peeps in the train. Nvrmind, this is the big challenge! Have to control whatever i say, think and look. Jia you Zee! And yessa! Fasting is the best diet for me. Hopefully could lose some weight. So that i can look sweet-er when my sister's wedding day! Which is 3 months from today? And, i'm the only one single with no hubby in the house. HAHAH! Its ok. I think its a great advantage of not having husband. No extra responsibilities. and furthermore, i want to pamper myself as much as i can before commit myself into anything(:
Cheyyyy!
As you know, i'm a veerrryyy busy lil Zee. So, if you find that my blog is too boring to read, i don't force you to read okay? Having you here to read till this part of my entry is already appreciated. (: Thanks!
Okay. Till here then. Once again happy fasting to all!
And HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all early childhood educators, especially to My dearest cousin, Kak Erda and my DPTF20 peeps-though we are trainee teacher. Very soon, all of us will get into different centres all over singapore. So, jyeah.. all the best okay?
Assalamualaikum people!
