Sometimes we tend to say what we don't really mean. And when that happen, we often regrets for saying all those words that are not meant to be blurt out. Finally, when we realised everything, it's like too late to wish that what has just happen, did not happen. (u get what i'm trying to say? hopefully.)

It's just so hard being me. I like to keep everything deep within me and not letting it out to anyone. And when one of those days that i'm feeling down, i'll rather let it out through my anger. It's like girls having the time of the month. When i do blurt it out, i usually just say out everything that i have been keeping for quite a long time. All this happen for a reason. And sometimes i don't know whether what i do is the right thing or it's not. connnnfffuuussseee!
I just want people to tell me the truth. Instead of lying or beating around the bush. Just be straight with me. Can? I'm not going to eat you up or anything. Be frank with me. That's all.

Fulfill your promise if you have promised to me anything. And hold on to your words. Don't ever eat back everything you've said. Wasted right? Waste your/my effort, time and money.

Entahlah people. I always end up believing and giving 2nd chance to the wrong person. Which i know it's impossible for that person to turn over a new leaf in just a short period of time. Now what? I regret taking every steps that i made.

With what i've seen people going through. Even with trust, things can go wrong. So what do you expect things to turn out if there's no trust at all. DISASTER right? I'm traumatised badly. I guess, i need to seek help already. hee(: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm just kidding. See! My mood changes every 5 minutes? Yikes!

Yes you can say that i'm very temperamental. And i'm also sensitive. But.... there's certain point that you can reach before i really blows up. I can be soft hearted at times. Easily forgive but hard to forget. I have a quite good memory, i must say. Photographic memory. When i want to recall an incident that really hurt me badly, i could. (to my suprise!) I can really recall everything in detail. That's why people say, girls can remember and hard to forget even how hard she tries. but as for guys, in a split sec, they can just turn to another victim. and act as though there's nothing wrong with them. Ohwell, this is all what we call 'innate' capability. It's already in them since they are born. Okay! STOP IT ZARA! she's bringing in all her studies to her real life. *Pray for zara well being please.* You don't want to see the next big hit thing in the newspaper abt a teenager, admitted to IMH just because of overload information from her lectures. Hee! (:

This week, (this month i must say) is really not the month that i look forward to. So, moody every now and then. And my headache is not making me feel any better. *sigh* Should i go doctor or not? The migrain is really getting bad these days. Even my lecture mates can see it. My ear turns red whenever i have a bad migrain. See how bad it is. And in addition to that.... My vision blurred out! Serious shit ke pe.

I think there's too much things on my mind. and i can't even concentrate on one. My mind is like rojak already. I wonder till when i can stay put with all these.