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November 28, 2007

12:07 AM

You know how frustrating it is, when you hide those true feelings and emotions that you're having? And how irritating it is to wake up every morning without having any msgs from the one you expected? And going to sleep with disappointments, that you end another day without having the usual goodnight talk with someone you expected? Let me tell you, all that sucks, okay? Maybe to someone out there, it’s like ‘ohh-crap’ or ‘whatever’! But it does matter to me.The whole way back from fee's crib yesterday, I was crying the whole way, while listening to the song Soul mate- currently on my blog. I keep repeating it on my mp3. Till I reach my house. I've been holding back those tears while I’m with them. *sigh* all I could do, is try be happy just for my dear sisters’ sake(: Well, The journey in the bus was boring. Imagine that I’ve been crying since I left ubi till I reach my house- jurong east? I just can't help it, I can’t hold it back ):To someone out there, i'm not having fun, you see! I'm suffering! & if my misery is your happiness, then let things be the way they are. But let me tell you this, I’m not enjoying any moments of all these. Get that? Argh! It was accidentally, aite? I did not do it on purpose. I DID NOT! I DID NOT! Don’t you get me? I wouldn't be saying sorry and cry in front of you, if i were to do that on purpose. I swear to god that it was an accident! Trust me! I love you, and i would not bear hurting you the way like i accidentally did that day. *sigh* It seems that it's so hard for you to get that in your head. Why can't you forgive me and forget? What abt those times that you hurt me accidentally? I forgive and forget. And pls, i do appreciate you, for god sake! Till when will all this stop? Till when? Yes, i was at fault too, i've said sorry. What more do you want? What else? I know things are different now, everything is changing; your heart, you and what’s around us. One thing for sure, I don’t have a change of heart. Once I love, it’s not easy for me to let it go. But, if I have to, for the sake of your happiness, then i’ll try to forget everything.

Go ahead with your new life, cause I’m sure, you’re having lots of fun, right? Think abt what I’ve said. And think abt those msgs that I’ve sent. Tell me, what’s your decision once you’re ready. Do for your own good, and follow what your heart whispered to you.

Stop cheating yourself! Decide now, or you’ll regret later on.