To all readers, for the time being, i don't think i'm blogging as much as i use to in the mth of september. No special occasion and life is as mundane as ever. Not in happy mood or anything. Just feel everything sucks around me. Actually the one that sucks right now is me, myself and I. Right? Everything i do, every steps i make, every decision i choose; everything seems so wrong. Sorry if my entry is boring to you. Well, just feel like pouring it all out here. My mind isn't at the right place, my heart is unsure of everything and *scream out loud* just have no f**king idea of what's going on. Feel like talking to someone; anyone, that can actually understand everything. I'm in a big dilemma & i'm damn confuse.
I miss the old me. I miss those laughter and giggles that i use to have, those smiles that i use to own. Yes! i can sense that i'm changing drastically. Well, now is the time to buck up. Just need someone by my side, that i can trust, to guide me through. Someone that isn't really out to hurt me in any way. A someone that actually could give me the strength and support that i wanted. I know somehow, i do have that someone. thanks to him/her, i'm still standing strong here. Facing everything. Thanks(:
To him, i know i'm always giving hard time and attitude that sucks. Like i've said. I'm in the state of confusion. Just have no idea of what should i do next. Thanks for putiing up with my nonsense. I know its not easy to talk things with me. and yeah! i know that i'm damn stubborn. Well, with things happening in my life, how am i suppose to be soft-hearted when end up? i'm always the one having the last cry. *sigh* prove to them, that you are not like what they say. Prove to them that their judgements abt you are absolutely WRONG. Show to me that you are willingly doind everything, show me you care, show me that you doesn't let anyone else enter your life just like i do. I just don't wish all of it go to waste, everything? after so much i've gone through with you? Think. Everyone make mistakes in life. Forgive me.
To my family, i'm truly deeply sorry to disappoint each and everyone of you. Punish me the way u think you should. I'm ready to accept everything.
To my dearest girlfees, yeah! i know i've been keeping things to myself lately. Sorry! Doesn't mean i don't share things with you, girls, i don't appreciate everything you, girls, have done for me. I appreciate every single of it. I'm thankful that the three of you, have not disappoint me like how my other gf do. I do lovee you girls aite?
Hahaha. yeah! my apology once again for being so naggy here. Well, i feel so much better now. Way much better than a few minutes ago. Thanks for reading.
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