current song: Akon-sorry, blame it on me
current mood: Damn bored+ confuse+ moody
The whole day i was stuck at home. At around 3plus, Cik Ogy came. Ohgosh! With my eyes all red& un-glam face(: Have a chat with my cousin. Then they went home at around 6plus. haish. damn bored. Mama cleaning up the kitchen, so I decided to help her out(: Done with the chores and all, switch on my comp and stare at the blank screen. As usual, went to friendster&blog.Went online at around 10plus cause fee said she got some important stuff discuss. Then chatted with my cousins. Actually, no mood to chat. Was just online, to kill time. Cause i can't sleep. T.Tmy random thoughts.
Have no idea, what's on my mind. Thinking too much? i guess. Just asking myself about what exactly that i want in life and all. I feel so terribly down this few days. I just need someone to talk to. someone that understand my feelings well. someone that can put myself in his/her shoe. Just a caring-soul-someone out there that aren't tired to entertain me.&& someone that thinks I'm worth his/her time. Someone that can give me a warm hug and say 'Nevermind. everything is going to be alright.'. Someone that sincerely care to be next to me, right now and forever. Someone to guide me through my confuse life. Someone that aren't taking me for granted. Someone that love me the way i am from head to toe. Maybe, that someone will only be in my dream. Or maybe, that someone is already here, but i'm too blinded by my past & I don't realise the presence of that someone. Or maybe, that someone is out there, waiting for me? Or perhaps, i can nvr have that someone. Not now, not in years to come, NEVER!Everything don't seem to be at the right place. I don't think i belong to where i am now, in life. I don't deserve anything. I hope that i'm back to my normal self soon and shall search for the smile&laughter that i've lost. I'm getting tired of everything. Feel like running from everyone and don't wish to come back. Anyone that reads this post, don't feel offended or anything. This is my random thoughts. I'm just ranting it all out(:
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