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September 26, 2007
11:33 PM
current song: Gone So Young- Amber Pacific
current mood: sleepy+ moody+ FcUK uP(:
Yayy! Like oh-final-ly! i get to meet up my darlings! weeeee. had so much fun today.
Though we started off our shopping spree abit late, still, the outing is GREAT(:
met jann*my darling* at bugis at abt 3.30pm, outside DIVA. We went to window shopping first, since mar*my scandal* is late. Went to Topshop-Topman-Give a name-Precious Moments-Levi's && lot more. half an hour later, met up with mar. && headed to bugis village to get our stuff. weee! i got two t-shirts! one is Little Miss Stubborn && the other one is a wording design tee, which says "WANTED boyfriend, submit application form with bank statement." wakakakakaka. coolness right?
Then, went to met Fee*my lover* at city hall. Woah! today is our GREEN day(: all of us were wearing diff tone of green that day, coincidently(: We headed to Marina. Went there to window shop && mar and jann wanted to meet their kongman*Ideen*. After that we break fast at PIZZA HUT(: at suntec! weeeeee!! it's Fee's treat laa seyy! THANKS A HELL LOT FEE!
well, thats abt it.
here are some pictures taken today.
enjoy!(:
wondering why are we such a beauty(: ? heehee.
hearts them alot! <33
my dear darling with me(:
my dearest lover & me(:
the stick girls((:
- - my lover make me do this. - -
pizzahut is LOVED<33
September 24, 2007
2:00 AM
sorry if i keep on hurting you
sorry if you don't like the things i say or do
sorry if with you i always put up a fight
sorry i just can't do anything right
sorry if i'm way far from being an angel
except compared to an angel from hell
sorry if you think my excuses are lies
sorry if it's so difficult quiting my vice
sorry if i'm not too understanding
sorry for all the headaches and pain i bring
sorry if often it's hard for me to swallow mypride
sorry if often i'm too blinded by anger to seeyour side
sorry if i'm so complicated
sorry i keep making you feel frustrated
sorry i can't fight back the tears
sorry if i keep you away from your peers
sorry if i always complain about you not meeting my expectations
sorry if sometimes i can't fight all these temptations
sorry if i seem like a joke to you
sorry if i don't appreciate all those sweet things you do
sorry if i keep on repeating the same mistakes
sorry i say stupid things and i can't find thebreaks
sorry i keep on hitting you when i'm mad
or ruin your day when mine's bad
sorry if i screw up being perfect for you
sorry i can never be the girl who's right for you
sorry if i'm such an awful girlfriend
sorry if...i can't even be your best friend.
i ain't perfect after all. happines for you is at the other side of the world. why don't you reach out for it rather than staying back and suffer through all the pains&misery? Seems like everything is changing around here. If it's better this way, i'm happy for you then(:
The whole day i was stuck at home. At around 3plus, Cik Ogy came. Ohgosh! With my eyes all red& un-glam face(: Have a chat with my cousin. Then they went home at around 6plus. haish. damn bored. Mama cleaning up the kitchen, so I decided to help her out(:
Done with the chores and all, switch on my comp and stare at the blank screen. As usual, went to friendster&blog.Went online at around 10plus cause fee said she got some important stuff discuss. Then chatted with my cousins. Actually, no mood to chat. Was just online, to kill time. Cause i can't sleep. T.T
my random thoughts.
Have no idea, what's on my mind. Thinking too much? i guess. Just asking myself about what exactly that i want in life and all. I feel so terribly down this few days. I just need someone to talk to. someone that understand my feelings well. someone that can put myself in his/her shoe. Just a caring-soul-someone out there that aren't tired to entertain me.&& someone that thinks I'm worth his/her time. Someone that can give me a warm hug and say 'Nevermind. everything is going to be alright.'. Someone that sincerely care to be next to me, right now and forever. Someone to guide me through my confuse life. Someone that aren't taking me for granted. Someone that love me the way i am from head to toe. Maybe, that someone will only be in my dream. Or maybe, that someone is already here, but i'm too blinded by my past & I don't realise the presence of that someone. Or maybe, that someone is out there, waiting for me? Or perhaps, i can nvr have that someone. Not now, not in years to come, NEVER!
Everything don't seem to be at the right place. I don't think i belong to where i am now, in life. I don't deserve anything. I hope that i'm back to my normal self soon and shall search for the smile&laughter that i've lost. I'm getting tired of everything. Feel like running from everyone and don't wish to come back.
Anyone that reads this post, don't feel offended or anything. This is my random thoughts. I'm just ranting it all out(:
Today mama re-arrange all the furniture in sister's room& a lil bit of touch up here and there at the living room. I helped out since, i have nothing else to do. Then, at 4plus, we get ready to go geylang serai. weeeee~~~~ bazaar! here i come baybeh(: Fahmi wanted to tag along, so he rushed home from work and chopchop get ready. Thought of fetching him, but we have to go sister's working place first by 5.20pm. So, he took train and meet us at paya lebar.
Reached geylang at abt, errrr... 6? 7? hahhaha. couldn't recall. Bumped into my granny at my dad's shop. Mama, me, ina, fahmi, my granny & sister, break fast at his shop. yayy! after that went bazaar. FUHYOH! pack laa seyy. saw a macphersonian, can't recall what is his name. Then, guess what?? Mama&sister saw *'my arwahnye' Fityaan(yan)- fee remember? the guy that has a sweet smile with a very cute dimple(: hahaha. **kiss kiss baybeh**-only fee, mar&jann know what i mean. hahahah. LOL. XD then, after mama bought her stuff , then we headed home.
haish. all the baju kurung&baju kebaya are all the same every year. pokemon nyer dragonball tols uh.
the funkyass peeps that rocks my polka dot socks(:
and last but not least, to my dearest sisters........
....... one thing for sure; i lovee this girls alot! miss hanging out with them. they all the best listening ears and they've been supporting me all this while together with my family. thanks gfs. U peeps are the most precious asset that god has given to me. i treasure you sisters. Gosh! I miss the old time. Now, each and every one of us, are leading a different life path. BUT! no matter what, u girls are still in my heart. Though we didn't get to meet often. and always remember, eventhough i'm staying far from you girls, doens't mean i totally forget abt you peeps. No matter what, i'm still here to listen to all your problems.
The time now is 7:31 am. Couldn't get myself to sleep again. hahahahas. Went through my old time pictures. Gosh! I miss schooling! I miss the teacher's nagging. I miss my classmates (1B, 2B, 3C & 4C). I miss doing assignments! i miss having extra classes and escape from those classes to go either PP, bugis or Toa payoh with my crazy girlfriends. I miss my angklung peeps; Miss Faridah, the kulintang peeps and even my senior(s)- ( Adriel, Syahirah & Wari). I miss all of them so so much. how i wish, i could turn back the time. ):
love x September 2007 love x October 2007 love x November 2007 love x December 2007 love x January 2008 love x February 2008 love x April 2008 love x May 2008 love x June 2008 love x July 2008 love x August 2008 love x September 2008 love x November 2008
