November 10, 2008
Look at the stars, look how they shine for you. 12:33 AM
Beware, this is going to be a 97% pictorial entry.
Finally after months, I met up with the older sister. Had a little update session over lunch at Warong Penyet at Marine Parade, and then headed up town to Orchard to find a place for more updates and the soft breeze.
Oh yes! The "Keep your hand on the car to win it" competition was on outside of Taka, and the crowd was insane. Orchard had its usual Saturday crowd, but other than my cousin, we didn't bump to any familiar and unexpected faces.
Settled at Coffee Bean at the back of Wheelock and awaited patiently for Marjuk to join us during his tea break. Though it was 40 minutes, he never failed to unblock the sick thoughts from his head which slowly escaped from his mouth. It's like having a can being opened, and worms reeling out from it everywhere. BUT. We had fun laaaaa.
And then later that night, an introduction of two strangers.
It may be a simple time, sitting together at some cafe drinking coffee, but it was great catching up. Almost5 hours at one spot, we should do this more often with the other two lovely girls.
Thank you so much to the day dearest Sister, because I had a wonderful and splendid time reminiscing the past, our secondary school days, and updating one another about our own respective lives. It's been far too long since the four of us last met just for a little update session. Fi's coming back in a few days time, and by then, the four of us would spent one whole entire day and bits and pieces of the young night at our favourite restaurant, together again.
About this two pictures? Little miss gila here took a snapshot of herself with my handphone and then realised that there was a resemblance between me and her, thus asking me to do an exact pose and do a comparison. So.. what do you think?
Whoaaaaa extra long entry. I think I'll take a break for a while. Oh! And I've finally decided on what to do to my hair. 17 more days to my big day. And exactly 30 days to another special day.
Time for bed. Sweetest dreams world. (:
p/s: "Hmmmmmm.." - marjuk style. LOL! I love you sister! Muuuaaacccks! <3
Labels: HELLO I'M JANNAH.
November 9, 2008
zeeisback. 1:18 PM
I'M BACK!
Ohhh myyy! How long have i disappeared from blogger?? I think... about a mth plus??? Ohhh goosh! Time flies that fast huh. I'm doing my attahment now. and it has been two weeks. It was pretty fine, adapting to the working environment, though some of the staff at the centre that I'm in are having some attitude problem. Ohhh wells, this is not going to be my permanent centre, so why care? I just want to have fun with the children there and gather as much knowledge as i can get.
So, how have you been readers? hope you are doing pretty well. Sorry for updating. Been busy lately. HAHAHAH! (I'm always busy to get my attention away from browsing through friendster.)
Oh man! There's a hell lot to update. but i just don't know where do i start???? hmmm.... (pondering) (:
let's be random.
#1: I had a surprise call from a guy working at jurong east NPC. (near my house)
He was ridiculuous. He called to ask for a meet up, acting as though me and him are perfecty fine. Not to forget, he's already attached!
Sometimes I wonder, don't these guys have a heart? To actually feel what others are feeling? They are human or animals from the jungle? Tell me about it!
I just hate when there's actually issue going on and that imbecile are acting as though its already settle. And has the cheek to ask for a bubble tea?!?! (Yeh. I forgot to add that to the information above. ) !#@$%!@(%(%&#(&%(@#%@#)%_@#@% thats for you, MFBMY.
#2:Working life is not bad afterall.
I just love the way my life is going on right now. I'm glad that the children are making my life better that before. They are the one putting on smiles on me. And they are the ones that are getting on my nerves (not bad though.) And through working, i can make myself adapt better with other people. I learn to understand different people personality and i even learn how do i handle these kind of people. Oh! did i make it sound that bad? Oppps! hee! But but, there are some nice ones though. (:
#3: Am i being too nice to people?
OOOOHHHHHH! this has been bothering me eversince i stepped into my diploma course. And and, i realised that i AM being TOOOOOO to people, even the strangers on the streets. HAHAHAHA. I encountered alot of inconsiderate people getting in my way. And what's worse than that? They even looked at me as though i AM the one that are cutting the queue. WTH!
and..... i just can't stop questioning myself about my life. I mean... EVERYTHING that has happen.
#4: MR. RIGHT? or MR WRONG?
How do i know if someone is really sincere in making friend with me? I always end making the wrong judgement towards them. The good ones, i judge them as my MR wrong. And the one that i assumed as my MR right, are actually the wrong ones. *Adachi!*
If only i had the power to read people's mind and heart. Wouldn't that be great?
...... okay.
i think that's enough for today.
i'll go random more often.
hee! (:
takecare,
Zee.
September 30, 2008
Greetings. 5:51 PM
Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow mates, who celebrates HARI RAYA of course.
And i want to take this opportunity to seek forgiveness to those people that I've done wrong;
be it hurting you people physically or emotionally.
Well, I'm a human too!
Can't escape from making any mistakes.
(:
So, I hope that all of you could forgive me.
Sincerely, I'm sorry.
And of course, HAPPY NEW YEAR.
don't eat alot okay? especially to my dearest DPTF20.
hee! (:
Love ♥,
Zeeboncet.
September 28, 2008
Energised. 7:49 AM
A BRAND NEW ZEE.
Okay, my horoscope says that i'm suppose to try something new and I'll be energised. And it even says go exploring for moreto build up on the energy i have.
So, the new look is something I tried. And its true, though i don't really look into horoscope thingy and i usually don't believe what it says. Cause, every aquarians would have the same thing right? So, i just think that the horoscope is a coincidence thingy.
So, yeah like i've said, I felt so energised and felt as though i'm turning over a new leaf, hopefully. Insya allah. Really need a breakout from this mundane life afterall. I can't be just sitting here doing nothing for myself and at the same time hoping for miracle to happen, right?? And things in life happen doesn't always give you an option to live up your life. So, Jia You!
So, let's really put the past behind. And hopefully it would fade away by itself. Hunt me no more. Please.
SO! Now, i want to try something new! *very evil smile* nyahahaaahhas.
(:
Okay. I'm suppose to get my assignment today. Cause due date is.... TMRW! Riiiigggghhht. Let's train myself to concentrate more. Aight! Gtg. Update soon! Stick around ya!
Lovee,
ZeeeBONCET.
PS: You decide what you want in your life not anyone else. Don't let others hold you back from getting what you want. Learn to say "NO".September 27, 2008
* Happy one year to her0fanaticalrants! * 8:46 AM
Oh my!
Look at how fast time flies.
Let's do a time check.
This month is September, isn't it?
Ok.
I don't think i'm in the wrong month.
And guess what?
My blog is a year old!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to our-lovestorybegins (initially).
but now its her-fanaticalrants.
So, yeah.
WIthout realising, i've been blogging for a year now.
Stayed up all morning after had my sahur.
And tried to do my assignments, but couldn't get my mind to concentrate.
So, browse the internet and decided to change friendster song again.
Hee! (:
Then don't know why, felt the urge to open my old entries at this blog.
And that's when i realised that I've been blogging for a year.
Yehhaaaa!
(:
Well, let's not look on the past, and let's just aim to do the best for the future!
PS: 3 more days to raya!
& About 3weeks to practicum.
):
September 24, 2008
No more being Miss Nice. 11:41 PM
Ok.
I just hate liars.
I know!
Who doesn't lie?
True?
But but, please laah.
When you can actually tell me the truth, why aren't you doing so?
Instead you either make it up or turn the story around.
Why am I always ended up facing with these type of people?
And the best part is that, i always get to know the truth behind all the lies.
Great right?
C'mon people.
I'm being nice and sweet to you.
But then, you shouldn't do that to me.
Hey! I have feelings too!
And guess what?
This is not the first time I'm facing with these type of people.
I met lots of them.
Arghhh!
Just how do I get out from this shite?
Tell me, how?
And why when I'm being nice to people, people always take advantage on my kindness.
And why do they always taking everything for granted?
I mean, I'm not tryng to be the 'angel' here.
But then, please have mercy on me.
I'm just a lil 'innocent' girl.
that just want the best out of my life.
Stop giving me frustation will you?
I had enough.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Let's start a proper blog entry.
I know I've been complaining and complaining about the shites that happen in my life.
But what to do.
I just can't keep it long enough in me.
Furthermore, it's not healthy ok.
Speaking about healthy.
Urgh!
I have to find a recipe that is suitable for 5-6 year olds children.
And it must be a HEALTHY meal of course.
And my migrain is killing me.
I can't even find a single thing on the yahoo search.
And the recipe that are stuck in my mind is for adult.
Not really suitable for growing up children.
I can't start my assignment YET.
Though i know it due in about a few more days.
But, i'm serious.
I'm mentally tired.
Today, Aira and me decided to come in late.
So, we took our own sweet time to make our way to class.
Though we know that the lecturer is very particular about punctuality.
But who cares?
I have a sudden urge to rebel today.
Maybe too tired of being lil nice girl in that class.
Even one of my lecturemate said,
"Z, you look so shagged! What happen to you?
And nowadays it's hard for me to see you smile.
And guess what? You look more fierce and seems like those type that are not easy to approach."
LOL!
Imagine that!
ME??
Not smiling???
Gosh! She must have look at me at the wrong time of the month.
Maybe.
I don't know.
And I think I know why.
Though it's a fasting month.
But then, past experiences makes me react that way.
Firstly, the boorish lady who worked in my school under one of the dept.
And secondly, the Certificate of Infants and Toddlers-students are soooooo.......
OPPOSITE OF FRIENDLY!
to the max.
Let's recap a lil.
Hmmm....
Last month I think,
My group had a late night discussion.
And bump into those students.
And i smiled.
Guess what?
They just give me the minah kind of stares.
"HELLO! In case you don't know. I'm trying to be nice here and trying to be friendly here.
And i don't appreciate that kind of look towards me.
And don't take me as one of the minahs out there.
Cause i ain't one of them.
You can differentiate that, don't you?
Gosh!"
And guess what?
Bumped into another batch of girls.
And their face is like... urgh!
Waste my effort to smile! (I'm sincere for smiling though. LOL!)
Don't get me wrong.
Hee!
And not forgetting to mention that they are actually the same race as me.
Those that are mentioned earlier.
YES!
Same race and religion.
I have a shock in my life to see this kind of people.
So, tell me.
Am i too nice?
Or is it just me that do not know how to pick on people; which to smile to or not.
PS: I hate people that I smile to, and they simply just look away and give me that kind of face.
So, when you're outside, and bumped into me and i'm smiling at you.
Don't ever dare to give me that kind of face.
Please be nice for once.
And for those that have smiled at me, and i ignored.
Means, I didn't see you.
So, its either you come up to me say HI or any other NICE and FRIENDLY approach.
(:
Till here then.
Nights!
I just can't wait for Friday.
A'ai(:
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September 23, 2008
We've come this far together. 4:54 PM
Last day with Lecturer Jenny Boey
Once upon a time..
has come to an end(:
Thanks to the lecturer for tolerating the nonsensical and hard time handling us(;
Learning Vision/Pat School House teachers-to-be.
Presenting to you; my hot babe.
Annk(:
These people has gone through thick and thin with me during this course.-My dearest groupmates-
I can't believe that its going to end soon.
But for this lecturer- Jenny Boey, she had her last lesson with us just now.
Yes! The very last module that is under her.
Gosh! Time flies that fast eh??
I'm like left with 3more modules to go... till the end of my course.
and A HELL LOT of assignments to be done.
Next week i have an assignment due, and also a presentation falls on the same day. (I think. Not quite sure which due date is which. Too packed already.)
And the following week, we have another assignment due.
The following week after the previous week, I have another assignment due.
And and.. the list goes on and on.
When will this going to end?
Soon i guess?
But i felt like it's never ending.
REMINISCING.
Sometimes I wonder why 'some' or 'certain' people are so free to do what they want.
And i'm like stuck here; with all the assignments.
What bothers me the most is that, some people just couldn't bother to take note of what is happening around.
They only react when they are told to do so.
And when they are not asked to do anything, they will just get the fact in their mind that,
"Ohh its ok. There's always someone finishing the task for me."
Sometimes i think, i'm being too soft hearted?
Like to give in?
Love to sacrifice own happiness for others' happiness?
Enjoys making myself felt deprive of having back my NORMAL & FUN life?
And even worse, i like to think for others'; i always take it that i have to put others before me.
But, then again!
Why am i doing all this, when i'm actually spoiling that person.
Right??
Don't I have my own life?
Don't I have my family to think of?
Don't I have other commitments; at most, i don't have a boyriend BUT i do have my friends; especially my girlfriends?
Don't I have my own assignments to think of? and to settle?
Don't I have the right to just step down?
Don't I have the right to voice out?
Don't I have to think about myself for once- Dont't i deserve a break?
Don't I have feelings too?
Don't you know how lethargic I am?
I'm not being self-centered here.
And i apologise if i sounded like one.
But, people...
This is the fact that no one knows
What if i tries to voice out, things will get worse?
But, I really need to get the msg across that i'm superduperextremely TIRED.
I'm worn out.
I have no energy left to boost up myself during this fasting period.
Do people like to step on my head, because I'm always being nice?
Do people like to think that every sentences I make, i really mean it the way they think it is?
Despite knowing what are my content for that sentence?
Why do people misinterpret what I says?
Don't these people know that... "Hello! I need some space here!"
I'm terribly in doubt with myself now. Should I? Or should not?I want to acknowledge what am i feeling but at the same time, I don't want anyone else hurt or I don't want to be seen as a mean person/ etc.*Z-boncet is in a massive DILLEMA.*
At times, I like to think back. And realise my mistakes. And i think HE(up there) just knock some sense into me. And i think, I don't mind if my girlfriends are to be mad, infact very mad, at me for my ignorant attitude towards them.
Girls, my apology right?
I'm sorry for what I've said to any of you, without knowing that it might sound harsh. I know i'm wrong, forgive me. But i hope you would just understand my situation. I'm in this terrible state, you know. I feel like breaking down right now. But i can't. I have to stay strong. Concurrently, I want you girls back like how we use to be.Like always, despite the distance between us; be it you are at east side of Singapore or outside of Singapore, far away... I'll always love you people.
Cause you people are always there for me; when i'm in need. Cause you people could have the empathy or sympathy for me. Cause you people are really special to me. Cause you people are the most greated person I've ever met. And the most important part is that, you people are the most precious assets that I own. Doesn't mean that I have my other new peeps, I have to forget about you people; you people I've placed it safely in my heart.
Trust me.
I didn't mean those hurtful words I've said. I'm under great pressure. Forgive me.
I'm sorry darlings. Forgive me. And for once, just put yourself in my shoe. And understand me. .
I would appreciate it very much if guys would do that.Once again!
I'm really sorry.
Forgive me! ):
September 21, 2008
Geylang cum Ikea 11:03 PM
Ok. Thought of meeting up someone today.But then, family came up with a last minute outing. Initially, had to delay the meet up but then at the end of the day...had to cancel it. *Sorry to Ai Ai (: "
Hmmmm.... What was the plan? Have a guess, where would you go if you're a week away from festive day and its a weekend somemore??
YES! Of course! Geylang uhh. Where else can we go. (: Sister wanted to find some baju kurung for Lil Princess. Went to most of the shop, but couldn't find her size. LOL! In the end, we found Lil Princess, 3 Baju kurung+ Baju kebaya. Kalah tauke! (:
And and, ohya!! I met my primary school teacher which I adore alot.She doesn't change at all. And i have her number, after waiting for about 6years, I get to meet back with her.
Hmmm.... Okay. Back to my story. After we have bought Lil princess's outfit for raye. We went to Ikea at Tampiness. Mama wanted to get some decorations for my house. We spend quite a long time there. Choosing, putting it back, browsing, take the item back, comparing two or three items and at last...she chooses the one that she want. That explains why we spend such a long time at there.
After that, I thought we were about to get home. Then brother took another way. We end up at Bukit Gombak bazaar ramadhan. Gosh! What a suprise. Did not expect to go there. Cause everyone was quite shagged that time. Its more like a sudden turn to Bukit Gombak. So, at bazaar what else do we do? Buy food of course.
Dish for the day- Nasi Briyani *burp.* (:
Okay. That's all for my weekend. Update soon. Here are some pictures to go along with today's entry.
The 3 Dara(s) (:
The best pose she made.
Ina ends her weekends, with a great big SMILE(:
September 18, 2008
can have a break? 12:47 PM
Ok! I'm rotting in class right now.
I feel OVER EXHAUSTED and when i walk out from my house, i'm like dragging my feet.
Not only that, I draged myself to get out from my bed.
Can you imagine, how bad is my life going on right now???
I know, i'm left to survive for a few more weeks.
About a mth to my attachment day and have 8 assignments due so far.
GOSH! during attachment period, i have a few assignments due!
How to handle this man??
In additonal to that, i have a folder for practicum to finish up.
So, in total i would have about 9 assignments due!
Huhu!
And i don't think Hari Raya this year is going to be fun for me.
Assignments due around that week.
And i don't have the mood to celebrate also.
Too tired to enjoy festive celebration.
):
I want to have a break!
YES! YES! YES! I want to have a break!
A VACATION! ):
I'm in need of one right now.
Aduhhh! Tired like hell laa seyy.
YESSSS cousin, i'm a busy woman right now.
Hope that i would have my free time soon!
Pretty soon pls!
Sorry readers.
I will only complain, complain and complain till the day where i can get.........
My FREEDOM!
till here then.
takecare folks!
September 16, 2008
Random. 11:50 PM
Ok. Is it just me, or my face look abit too small than last time???
Dh nmpk tulang(skeleton face). Eeeeww.
And it looks like as though i'm taking drugs or something.
I think its because of the work load, insufficient sleep and of course Ramadhan period.
Though I'm thankful that i get some fats off me.
But then again, i just miss my chubby cheek.
HEE! (:
You must be thinking or must have the idea that i'm just like one of those girls out there that will never be contente with what they have. Always complaining. Typical right.
Then again, don't always judge me by the way I write.
Each and everyone are different.
And I prefer to bore you readers by saying all this out. (:
Don't you just lovee me??
What else can i talk about?
Love life? Neh. Don't have YET.
My GFs?? I'm busy and they are on their own way of living their life. I do miss them, but what to do. I have to go through this now or never. And I'm only left...with like what?? A month more to get my Diploma? Gosh. That's fast.
My lecturemates and I didn't feel as though we are already there listening to most of the lectures for about 4 months? It feels like we are there forever and never ending course.
Monday just handed in an assignment, group assignment.
And now, there's a group presentation tmrw afternoon. And next week there's another written individual assignment to be handed in. The folowing week till the week when we are all out for our on the job training, we would still have some assignments due. *sigh*
Ok. Sorry for being random.
And and, it's going to be Hari raya soon.
*No mood*
:(
Wish there's a free time for us.
Hopefully.
Till here then.
Update pretty soon with more exciting stories, i guess.
